Wanting things that seem Unreal in today's world !!!

 School’s back in session my desires are spiked as a letter from the teacher

Finds me curious and tempted with hope of another try !

Can I really do this I wonder in the back of my brain ?

I mean who's  ever heard of a big boned woman learning

Tricks of a trade only those runway models get a chance at these days .

Oh! How I’ve missed the smell of leather as a grin comes across my face ,

I’m lost in desires of handcuffs and a flogger being introduced to me .

He told me there’s no chance of losing him again

It seems my mouth has run away with me , when I confess

I’d love to learn these ways your known to teach .

Yet not if it means losing a friend .

His eyes are like kryptonite I can’t look away the chemistry between us

Has me spellbound from wanting things I thought never in a

Million years I’d get to live IN a moment of a wish

Is a dream your heart makes , when others think its insane !

The Master rewards me well for not giving up as I feel him

From behind smacking my ass hard with my dirty little thoughts .

The water falling down on both of us , has me hypnotized

To moonlight shinning down on lovers lost in a kiss

like an enteral flame rarely witnessed comes believed .

Written 5/31/2013 sometimes you just gotta have faith there’s more

Then just looks to a person . there’s the chemistry that draws you

In like magnet to steel life affirming .

Can I Keep You

  Can I Keep You 

     You  ever had a moment in your life you just 

   Couldn't shake 

    

Where you questioned yourself , on did I truly do 

   Enough for the world to be remembered ? 

    

  No matter how many years it's been since we last 

   Laughed or talked .

  

  Honestly it's crazy how much we take for granted

  Til we realize life's sweetest rewards 

    Can't be bought with money , they have to be 

  archived in living in priceless moments 

  

Whether it be a silent shoulder or bear hug , words 

  don't need to be explained !! 

  Where ever God chooses to send me in the next 

  round 

  I'm hoping I was enough that the sentence echoed 

 Can I keep you as you made a world of difference 

  when it seemed impossible to 

   Comprehend Me 

  Written by Kc aka Celeda Rein 1/25/2025 

  

  As a way to say  

   Embers blaze in a soul that's missed & forgotten 

  Yet  Love's Unity connects them 

Inspired by country singer Keith Anderson 

Scored On My Heart

 Scored On My Heart 

Scored on my heart 4 words that change one's perspective , of what it means to be loved beyond the universe . 

Four words that tell ya , I see ya when you think others wanna treat you invisible. 

Just paying things forward without being asked

Is its own miracle of miracles , you never really knew helped someone bound for chaos . 

Whether we wanna admit it or not , getting someone to laugh a little or smile .

When you yourself are going through hell , 

builts a kaleidoscope of hope in vibrant colors 

That make church bells ring nation to nation 

Pound for pound 

May the next generation learn a few things , 

like respect for others and agree to disagree 

Peacefully !!

And it's not a sin to be a man in a Hard Shell yet 

tender soul when needed .

Written 11/7/2020 by KC as a way to say 

Sometimes I wish the reflection in someone's

eyes 

Taught us to embrace what's important when standing at a crossroad. 

You Did That

 You did that 

l love us , 3 words that you've thought were impossible outta fear a mark leaves on your soul !! 

You did that , simply by just being there when the world started to feel bitter and cold . 

You showed the easiest way to say I love you without knowing it .

Just by the simple statement of , 

I love Us breathes life into so many whom felt alone and frustrated beyond limits .  

For loving US,  sets wings free to fly where need be knowing they'll be back in another form or sign to say I never truly left cause your smile lingers within me !!  knowing it's the Kaleidoscope of vibrant colors that endures all forms of chaos and blends those crazy nights into goals the mountains seemed to hard to reach . 

Yet hearing I love us , means somewhere out there in the abyss is your very own team cheering you on saying 

You got this , don't let go of the power within you that seeks the freedom to 

Breathe again by signs of those you can no longer hold in your arms yet are forever guardians of the Galaxy in the milky way of Northern Lights that shimmer across the sky as it breathes a life time of memories back in you saying 

What you did for me I'll never be able to payback yet I pinky swear to always pay it forward to others as 

I love US means there's no more fear of darkness just a flame that carries light to whomever needed it as their's was almost snubbed out by ashes of doubt . 

Written 2/25/2021 by Celeda Rein aka KC 

As a way to thank someone who let me see the term I Love Us is by far the easiest way to get pass words that once made you built walls around you as high as Camelot's  Castle just to feel safe . again 

 Bitten by Moonlight  { A hickie isn’t gross it’s the power of Kismet } 

I get it you know , I spooked you by letting my guard down . With the confession of saying 

I found you cute when I had no right to 

As you don’t know me from Adam and I guess in some small ways you never will ... ! 

As I’ll never be able to travel so I live my best lives through books and the souls God has graced me enough with meeting that chose to stay friends beyond this earth and the universe .  with a galaxy of stars you’re  lucky enough to witness above a river bank glistening  to  a full moon’s light . 

You can even hear wolves howling in the far off distance letting you know fate has a way that teaches us all passion might be sexy in the heat of a moment with chemistry thrown in . Yet it dies down quick when you’re  left feeling unworthy of the gift you’ve dreamt of 

Where things change from fact to fiction in the blink of an eye’s tunnel vision wound up tighter 

Then the kaleidoscope of a church  window you called home !! 

Written 10/13/2018 by Celeda Rein as a way to say Most see me as insane due to my outspokenness from being shackled to a wall for 27 years . Instead of just saying you’re  a rare breed that says what you feel with no bullshit or game of cast and tug 

Confessions Vs Blindsided From Truths 

Would you ever meet me In the middle ? Or am I a blazing star falling from heaven 

So I couldn’t tell you what I really felt it seems awkward to confess things now . 

I’m a women that hates the old school saying 

{ you can’t love NO one til you learn to love yourself } to me that’s total bullshit !! 

 As I’ve been in love a few times in my 56 years 

On this planet , yet I don’t use the words I love you cause to me seems a lot of people say them like water off a duck’s ass not knowing the truest of meaning behind them . 

To me love is come hell or high water not losing faith in the person that’s intrigued you enough that watching them grow before you is like a kaleidoscope of wonder for a blind man’s  first time seeing heaven again . 

 You’ll never understand what power lies in a soul that’s so humble it finds its sweetest rewards just seeing the light shine in the eyes of others who’ve embraced them through simple acts of kindness wether it be a hug or just a simple hello again . 

Yet I promise you this and ask that you don’t take it lightly ! if someday god graces me with meeting you and I say I love you don’t make me regret my choices as I’m fragile in most places yet a warrior when least expected . 

I’ve built walls around me for a reason , it isn’t to say I’m stone cold heartless , yet to prove when I love someone it’s above and beyond any and all words yet to be found in a  tribal galaxy of stars that out shine the darkest of hours !! 

Written by Celeda Rein 8/27/2018  as a way to say I wish I was as brave as a Knight of the Round table when it comes to confessions . 

Yet everytime I’ve hinted at liking someone 

I become the victim of just another window people glance through not wanting to know me even as friends . 

I’m a good student at learning things most wanna rush through merely because most see me as invisible or cause I’m use to lurking in shadows outta fear of being rejected over and over again . 

So you see I’m different then most , cause when you finally here the words I love you 

Coming from my lips you’ll understand 

I’ve fought so many demons in my past , 

I take nothing for granted yet remain a humble 

Servant of miracles come when least expected 

Not when we wanted them . 

               Ride or Die , Talk to Me 

Change is through seasons , What faith is to life . 

I honestly wish I knew the Riddle that has you seeing me as leprosy through talks we’ve had .

where I’m bewildered  asking myself why would you leave ? Was it because of the nickname we’ve been through so much over the years , 

It seemed like peas in a pod . I’m still the same 

girl who believes in King Authur & Camelot . 

Tho on full moons yes it’s true I’d love to be seduced by Batman or Zorro guilty as charged . 

I miss our talks and especially the laughter 

As it’s not everyday you find imperfections 

That light up your chaotic world of darkness 

With a kaleidoscope of passion and wonder !! 

What’s so wrong about being honest in saying 

Yes I felt blessed to be hugged in spirit as I doubt we'll ever meet . 

However trite it may seem to you , simple things in moments like notes , laughter , smiles , cast the embers in my soul afire 

To where I feel like I could walk on water without fear of drowning in lack of oxygen . 

So tell me the truth I promise I can handle it , was 

It really the nickname or did I over step boundaries for being different then most you’ve met ? 

Written July 24, 2018  by Celeda Rein as a way to say I’m stronger then I seem,  even on days 

Where I’d give anything just to be hugged with compassion and No Strings 

Joker's Wild 

The things I miss , yet can't get a break .  I miss having the friend who come hell 

Or high water would never lose faith in me . 

I miss talking about simple things with you and seeing that smile across your face !!! 

I really missed the clue this round , that told my gut don't do it . 

He won't understand and why do you want to keep up on confessions , when 

He might get to the point others have of  thinking your a physco , 

Running on what a fool believes , instead of knowing fact from fiction . 

You can't keep thinking he's your BFF  just because he always seems to 

Come to your rescue out of the blue like genie did for Aladdin !! 

You're not a kid anymore , you're a grown ass woman who  just has to face the facts . 

Some people don't need your  in put on things or wanna listen . 

Sometimes they just wanna be a friend with very little inter action 

If I could take it all back & get a fresh start tommorow I'd say I'm so sorry for telling 

You my personnel life's story and let's just be friends like Rocky & Creed 

Living the dream of knowing people don't always roll with the punches or 

Times way of marching on when called for . 

Written by :  Celeda Rein June 23,2014  As a way to say , Sometimes I have a bad habit 

Of being an open book to people who didn't ask then they haul ass yet not 

Before pointing out my flaws with the same old glare of reflection  broken wings 

Of god's truest messenger . 

I wrote this back in 2008 , after #KeithAnderson 

Defended my honored when we'd only met for a 2nd 

Or 3rd time at a concert 

Whispers From the Voiceless

Whispers From The Voiceless 

She's lost in a place I can't get her back , no matter what I say it's like  I've got 

2 heads on me , things are closing in fast . 

All I keep thinking about is they say God never gives us more then 

We can handle yet If God's truly testing me I'm losing this battle . 

All I ever wanted to do was help her by getting her a pill to keep her 

From shaking so bad  . Now she  see's things attacking  at will without 

Surrender . I don't blame God I blame myself as all I wanted to do 

Was try and help her understand it didn't matter if she made a mess 

Trying to eat , things could be washed it was no big deal !!! 

Now instead I have a mom who really doesn't hear me saying I'm 

Standing right here mom I'll protect you ! 

I wanted so much to go to the beach tonight & focus on a full moon 

For my santucary yet rainy clouds popped that bubble . 

My 2 nd choice was I'd find peace of mind sitting in a Catholic Church

On a bench with silent whispers to god & his angels of mercy for help !!! 

Yet again the doors are closed and locked because foolish people 

Steal from the biggest house of all God's Throne . 

I remember the day well my Uncle Albert that raised me died of a heart attack , 

As he layed in his casket I swore to myself if it wasn't for his hands that body 

Wasn't his , he was off somewhere working undercover & I'd never see that smile 

Or feel his big bear hugs again that told me hold unto the things that last , 

As tommorow we're gonna put the hammer down & start this big 18 wheeler engine . 

If it's really your time to go as things are never in our hands , I hope and pray 

With all my soul even tho I never said the words out loud cause I feared you 

Never believed them   Ps I love you more then anyone could even comprehend 

I'm just the stubborn mule  who refuses to confess all my worries to others 

As we all have troubles we're afraid of admitting cause there's  only 1 God , 

Whose got more then his share to deal with , you know for me 

When god was busy I found comfort in the worlds greatest teachers in life 

Animals or to me  Bella & Goldie our German Shepards now that there in heaven 

I know without a doubt they'll be there if you can't come back to me as your feeling 

Lost and Alone in that mist of darkness of that long black train your man 

Cash is telling you to see his lantern burning to show you heaven . 

Written janruary 15, 2014  As a way to say I'm sorry we waited so long to fix 

our differences , even when I never thought I'd get this close to 

Forgiveness .  I finally somewhat get what it means put it in his hands . 

I'll Miss you the most TinMan

   

What did you tell them ? Why did you  do this to me , did you think

I wouldn't find out ? Don't you know karma has away of back firing ! 

I left you in peace because you cut me so deep . 

I never in a million years expected you to turn on me . 

Yet have been told by others  you've done it to them as well , so 

I guess in some small way I'm in good company . 

Yet what I'll never understand  is IF you threw me under a bus in front of 

So many of the people we both knew what glory  did you get from it ? 

When I was always good to you up until the time you made our 

Private group think I was trying to invade your * space * 

When all I did was bring more rp's your way to get room 

More fans and noticed . 

I'm guessing deep down you don't even care as the Sam on TV 

Is so different then the one I played with because 

In my gut  I know he loves his Luna  even at the times he called her a 

Physco bitch  . 

That's why what they have  is known as * Wanted *  for  they had each others 

Backs come hell or high water nobody could break them apart 

Even when outsiders thought Luna wasn't good enough for Sam . 

Written 3/17/2013  months may of passed yet trueblood will never be the same for me 

Warriors cry of love

My heart skips to the beat of a different drum  when wolves cry outside

As the moon shines from above .  Wrapping you in my arms as 

You press your body into me  , I long for the taste of your endless need .

Your hands they grip my shoulders tight as the muscles in your 

Arms show me  what wrapped in heaven's like .  Oh! How 

I need the enternal  flame that burns so bright yet never fades . 

Because  the great spirit above  taught us long ago 

Not all magic  is fake  ,  true believers know what 

Chemistry  between strangers can do  , when the passion 

Is living IN a moment to good to be true . 

We won't let  time or ignorance get in our way  as we have 

Shown the world we're  here  to stay  . 

Just by the way your rythmn rides deep  inside me  , I crave  this moment 

From now pass  all the stars in our  galaxy . 

May you always know  where ever you roam the scared spirit  

Blessed us  the day  I roamed  the mountains looking to 

Cry out  for  love ! 

Written march 16 th  , 2013  by Celeda Rein 

Only the strong survive

Pieces of glass shattered on the floor , kneeling in front of them looking down 

It'd be so easy  to pick one piece up and place it across my wrist  

Yell at satan ok I surrender  you win,  you fucking piece of shit ! 

As his laughter fills my ears and he  slithers around me  like 

The spitting cobra who aims for a face . 

I say before you take my soul answer me this , they say god never let's you 

See those in heaven once you kill yourself . Why did you feel the need 

To dance on every chance , of  hope in romance That i ever came in contact with 

Even tho in my 50 years of life there had truly only been a possibly of 4 . 

As he walks around me with a smug look on his face , he whispers close 

To my ear his  hot breathe on my skin I needed something new and un used! 

Those people up there on earth they toss theirselves at anything without 

Thinking twice about the price they've paid to be famous amoung  friends . 

You he says , laughing his ass off at me as he pokes me in the chest with 

A long pointed finger nail that cuts me deep , you've enticed me for years 

Cause you've always been a fighter with a free spirit yet I knew sooner or later 

I'd find the weakest part of you if I kept at  you .  The way a dog will 

Bury a bone with no meat on it , yet give him a meaty one  he'll play 

With it for hours  on end . the same way a wild cat plays with a mouse before 

He devours it  with one swat !  

You'll never know what love is cause we don't preach that down here ,  what you 

Will learn over and over again is what it's like to feel your skin burn . 

As I've already started the wheels in motion by your sleepless nights 

And burning sensation in your leg that you can't control and think 

Aspirin is really gonna help ?  

Not this time Ms Cheeky Monkey {  oh yess I've heard you like being called that } 

However  welcome to hell angels of pure snow don't leave here . 

Written march 3 , 2013    As a way to say  sometimes things    Get  UN noticed quick 

Other times it just sucks being different 

Round One 

I was never good at sports or even  knowing what certain parts of games meant .

Yet I knew which teams or positions I liked best !

For example lately I've figured out after getting the chance to see 

3 baseball games back to back of Tampa Bay Rays against 

The Cardinals  , I looove the sound of a bat hitting a ball 

It entices me almost as much as hearing Zorro crack a bull whip!

I'm not big on popcorn yet I love cotton candy not only for its 

Sweetness yet for the colors swirled together that  draw me in 

With wonder & satisfaction .

The biggest sport I love to watch sometimes tho might surprise most 

Cause I 'm  amazed at the fearlessness  in both   That being the look

In the eyes of  boxers & bull riders it's like they know the road 

Ahead is gonna be bumpy yet they're not throwing in the towel 

Because it's in their blood  never surrender . 

When push comes to shove you'll see they don't back down 

They embrace the challenge and say what's the next on the list . 

There are some days tho I tell you true I wanna strip down 

All my walls and shout this is me flaws and all 

Take me as I am or watch me walk . 

Ah yes I know I don't show my face much in pictures , 

Yet that's because I still haven't found many people 

Left in the world I can trust to be myself with 

That are in total agreement with the verse from long ago 

In a far off place that scriptures read  

Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder not the color of skin or 

What a body's shaped like ! 

Written march 1 , 2013 by : Celeda Rein  the heart is blind 

Because a soul out shines beauty 's mark any day , as the soul 

Is where boundless compassion & love get their strengths from 

Jealous

                     

I miss you like crazy it's hard to believe , just how much you're envied 

People flock to you like sheeps to a Shepard 

Shadows that dance off beams of sunlight kissing sidewalks 

As strangers pass each other by struggling in the streets 

Of New York just to make ends meet . 

I blew it I know when my green horns showed their true form 

Of caring to much & not giving you enough space 

even tho I meant what I said I'll always be your friend 

Come hell or high water I'd be the rock you could lean on 

To show the world you're tough ! 

Yet I need you to see even tho I'm tryin to do 

What you ask and stop  building walls around myself  

Locked up safe in my own little world 

Cause I'm to afraid to scream out , I too 

Wanna know what love is , by a first kiss , or dancin in the rain . 

Sometimes my body feels like the song 2 outta 3 ain't bad 

Waiting on the white coats to find me as they laugh 

 

Written  12/12/2012 by Celeda Rein as a way to say true love 

May never die yet live in the moments of knowing what it means 

To grow up as a flower child when some around you 

Would give anything to know 

Just what 1 touch , 1 kiss , 1 hicke could live on in a lifetime's worth 

The mercy of being touched by an angel through god ! 

You're So Worth It !!!

You're  So Worth It  !!!

It only takes a second to choose the wrong from right

Nobody's perfect that's why God's

the enternal light .

That shines from above somedays through even

the darkest of sky's .

I know you get tired of hearing  it

and think i'm crazy

Because your life is your life and none of

my business .

yet just think about this for a fraction of a section ,

Do you love yourself ? do you love

your family and friends ?

If the answers to these ?'s are yes with all my heart

Then put down the phone while your driving my friend

texting isn't the only thing

that can kill behind the wheel .

Don't jump on me and say your a multi tasker remember

Bad things can happen when least expected as we're

all in this world together !

you want good company on that road trip

from work or a vacation?

pack your car with music to soothe your

aches and frustration .

Til your walking in the door of those you

Love looking for that waging tail , meow , or hug

that says i'm glad your home , I truly missed you .

Remember this isn't me saying i'm perfect , this IS me

saying YOU'RE worth so much more alive

then behind bars or 6 feet under !

written nov 6th , 2012 by : Celeda Rein because I care enough to say no one's promised tommorrow yet living in moments

is better then being taken to quickly because of an

Obsession .

Sam & Luna Wanted

You and I are like no one else we're a rare breed

that stays true to themselves !

I saw it in your eyes the day , I first met you

sitting at a bonfire with friends telling stories of things

we had or could change into .

I see through new eyes the places you've opened my heart too

by not only lifting my spirits , yet embracing Emma

with your gentleness of teaching her .

We're not running away from  our problems

when we seek nature's voice for guidance , we're merely

remembering what it means  to stay true to your self !

When people don't wanna acknowledge the fact

there's to many copy cats out there pushing you

into places you dont feel safe in !

Always remember and never forget

I love you that will never change

Because with you

I'm Wanted

written 10/26/2012 by Celeda Rein for Sam & Luna because

being Different takes Courage