Joker's Wild 

The things I miss , yet can't get a break .  I miss having the friend who come hell 

Or high water would never lose faith in me . 

I miss talking about simple things with you and seeing that smile across your face !!! 

I really missed the clue this round , that told my gut don't do it . 

He won't understand and why do you want to keep up on confessions , when 

He might get to the point others have of  thinking your a physco , 

Running on what a fool believes , instead of knowing fact from fiction . 

You can't keep thinking he's your BFF  just because he always seems to 

Come to your rescue out of the blue like genie did for Aladdin !! 

You're not a kid anymore , you're a grown ass woman who  just has to face the facts . 

Some people don't need your  in put on things or wanna listen . 

Sometimes they just wanna be a friend with very little inter action 

If I could take it all back & get a fresh start tommorow I'd say I'm so sorry for telling 

You my personnel life's story and let's just be friends like Rocky & Creed 

Living the dream of knowing people don't always roll with the punches or 

Times way of marching on when called for . 

Written by :  Celeda Rein June 23,2014  As a way to say , Sometimes I have a bad habit 

Of being an open book to people who didn't ask then they haul ass yet not 

Before pointing out my flaws with the same old glare of reflection  broken wings 

Of god's truest messenger . 

I wrote this back in 2008 , after #KeithAnderson 

Defended my honored when we'd only met for a 2nd 

Or 3rd time at a concert 

Whispers From the Voiceless

Whispers From The Voiceless 

She's lost in a place I can't get her back , no matter what I say it's like  I've got 

2 heads on me , things are closing in fast . 

All I keep thinking about is they say God never gives us more then 

We can handle yet If God's truly testing me I'm losing this battle . 

All I ever wanted to do was help her by getting her a pill to keep her 

From shaking so bad  . Now she  see's things attacking  at will without 

Surrender . I don't blame God I blame myself as all I wanted to do 

Was try and help her understand it didn't matter if she made a mess 

Trying to eat , things could be washed it was no big deal !!! 

Now instead I have a mom who really doesn't hear me saying I'm 

Standing right here mom I'll protect you ! 

I wanted so much to go to the beach tonight & focus on a full moon 

For my santucary yet rainy clouds popped that bubble . 

My 2 nd choice was I'd find peace of mind sitting in a Catholic Church

On a bench with silent whispers to god & his angels of mercy for help !!! 

Yet again the doors are closed and locked because foolish people 

Steal from the biggest house of all God's Throne . 

I remember the day well my Uncle Albert that raised me died of a heart attack , 

As he layed in his casket I swore to myself if it wasn't for his hands that body 

Wasn't his , he was off somewhere working undercover & I'd never see that smile 

Or feel his big bear hugs again that told me hold unto the things that last , 

As tommorow we're gonna put the hammer down & start this big 18 wheeler engine . 

If it's really your time to go as things are never in our hands , I hope and pray 

With all my soul even tho I never said the words out loud cause I feared you 

Never believed them   Ps I love you more then anyone could even comprehend 

I'm just the stubborn mule  who refuses to confess all my worries to others 

As we all have troubles we're afraid of admitting cause there's  only 1 God , 

Whose got more then his share to deal with , you know for me 

When god was busy I found comfort in the worlds greatest teachers in life 

Animals or to me  Bella & Goldie our German Shepards now that there in heaven 

I know without a doubt they'll be there if you can't come back to me as your feeling 

Lost and Alone in that mist of darkness of that long black train your man 

Cash is telling you to see his lantern burning to show you heaven . 

Written janruary 15, 2014  As a way to say I'm sorry we waited so long to fix 

our differences , even when I never thought I'd get this close to 

Forgiveness .  I finally somewhat get what it means put it in his hands . 

I'll Miss you the most TinMan

   

What did you tell them ? Why did you  do this to me , did you think

I wouldn't find out ? Don't you know karma has away of back firing ! 

I left you in peace because you cut me so deep . 

I never in a million years expected you to turn on me . 

Yet have been told by others  you've done it to them as well , so 

I guess in some small way I'm in good company . 

Yet what I'll never understand  is IF you threw me under a bus in front of 

So many of the people we both knew what glory  did you get from it ? 

When I was always good to you up until the time you made our 

Private group think I was trying to invade your * space * 

When all I did was bring more rp's your way to get room 

More fans and noticed . 

I'm guessing deep down you don't even care as the Sam on TV 

Is so different then the one I played with because 

In my gut  I know he loves his Luna  even at the times he called her a 

Physco bitch  . 

That's why what they have  is known as * Wanted *  for  they had each others 

Backs come hell or high water nobody could break them apart 

Even when outsiders thought Luna wasn't good enough for Sam . 

Written 3/17/2013  months may of passed yet trueblood will never be the same for me