Confessions Vs Blindsided From Truths 

Would you ever meet me In the middle ? Or am I a blazing star falling from heaven 

So I couldn’t tell you what I really felt it seems awkward to confess things now . 

I’m a women that hates the old school saying 

{ you can’t love NO one til you learn to love yourself } to me that’s total bullshit !! 

 As I’ve been in love a few times in my 56 years 

On this planet , yet I don’t use the words I love you cause to me seems a lot of people say them like water off a duck’s ass not knowing the truest of meaning behind them . 

To me love is come hell or high water not losing faith in the person that’s intrigued you enough that watching them grow before you is like a kaleidoscope of wonder for a blind man’s  first time seeing heaven again . 

 You’ll never understand what power lies in a soul that’s so humble it finds its sweetest rewards just seeing the light shine in the eyes of others who’ve embraced them through simple acts of kindness wether it be a hug or just a simple hello again . 

Yet I promise you this and ask that you don’t take it lightly ! if someday god graces me with meeting you and I say I love you don’t make me regret my choices as I’m fragile in most places yet a warrior when least expected . 

I’ve built walls around me for a reason , it isn’t to say I’m stone cold heartless , yet to prove when I love someone it’s above and beyond any and all words yet to be found in a  tribal galaxy of stars that out shine the darkest of hours !! 

Written by Celeda Rein 8/27/2018  as a way to say I wish I was as brave as a Knight of the Round table when it comes to confessions . 

Yet everytime I’ve hinted at liking someone 

I become the victim of just another window people glance through not wanting to know me even as friends . 

I’m a good student at learning things most wanna rush through merely because most see me as invisible or cause I’m use to lurking in shadows outta fear or being rejected over and over again . 

So you see I’m different then most , cause when you finally here the words I love you 

Coming from my lips you’ll understand 

I’ve fought so many demons in my past , 

I take nothing for granted yet remain a humble 

Servant of miracles come when least expected 

Not when we wanted them .