My Meaning Of A Friend

My Meaning of a Friend
If you knew i was dying from a disease that had no cure
could i still count on you for moral support .
they say when your bad off , you know who
your real friends are . but its sad to think
just cause my looks may be changing or i've started to get thin ,you'd be afraid to be near me because of what
blows in the wind .
sure people are gonna talk or might even make fun . But
that's cause they've got No Heart & Soul or True meaning to them of what a true friend is .
We can't let time or ignorance get in the way as Life's to short as it is .
So if you really Love someone as a friend Don't wait til the last minute to stand beside them , Reach or your hand or give them a Big ol Hug and you'll realize
what its like to know , you can go on

your final journey Knowing you were and Always will be
LOVED . written 9-17- 98 for my cousin gary whom i never got to say good bye to



Owe to A GutterGirl Queen & An Angel of Mercy

Owe To A GutterGirl Queen & An Angel of Mercy

Sometimes in Life we meet people that touch not only our hearts , yet also our souls in such a way it's like a burning ember you can't put it out and the more ya watch it the more beautiful and priceless it becomes to where sometimes it leaves ya speechless and it makes ya wonder how God's gift to you was able to come at a time in your life when you where about to lose all Hope and Faith i've met alot of great people in my life ode to the help of a Gutter Girl Queen and The Angel of Mercy because through them i've learned to laugh when i want to cry and i've learned to share the compassion they've shown me to others when i thought i lost my inner self 17 yrs ago as i turned my heart to stone and only trusted animals . then when the Monster of cancer hit my Gutter girl Queen and God's angel of Mercy wrapped their arms around her i wanted her to know it may have be a while since we last spoke however because of her and The compassionate Heart Of a man we all know i'll do my best to make sure the world knows being in the Gutter can almost be as uplifting and have priceless moments in time you'd never forget , yet would pray really hard to make sure their memory lives on forever . because without them in the depths of your soul The Heart gets to a place known for it's bitterness and cold . so here i sit with these thoughts of you in my head wishing i could of told ya 1 more time as i hugged ya Thanks for being you and giving me back the the soul of a child who Loved the term Peace ,Love and Happiness and i ode it all to you ms connie and our angel of mercy K . A. because you both have given me back my Heart and compassion for wanting to be kinky at times in a fun way and never having to be ashamed of it because of you my spirit will soar like an eagle over hill tops and the laughter with friends becomes gutter worthy and never ends . written by kim celeda jan 22, 2009 for ms connie our gutter girl Queen and the Man i call angel of mercy Keith Anderson



Meant Something To Me

It takes alot for me to express how i feel ,when it comes to men.

because most people weren't Heavy when i was a Kid .

all through school i was afraid to raise my hand

as i didn't wanna seem nerdy so i stayed quiet and sunk into

the chair at the back of the Class wishing i could disappear .

like the Sun on a stormy day.

as i grew into my teen years ,  things didn't change much i had few friends

so i'd stay in my room listening to songs that touched

the deepest part of my Soul and Awakened a spirit in me

that now finds it easier to write what i feel  thanks to a poem

i heard once on the radio back in my teens by a group called

The Moody Blues and the song Nights In  White  Satin's  poem

is all it took for me , to break FREE of the chains that made my Heart feel as cold as a Body with  NO SOUL .

This poem became My Wings to soar places i'd never Dreamed

possible for me .

especially now as an Adult who went through years of being used as

a human punching bag for someone almost 19 years ago 

it still feels like yesterday , being grabbed by the throat 

thrown up against a wall time and time again 

when all you can do is cover your face , because you don't 

want the marks to show there , so you'd rather be hit  in other places. 

it took me 5 years to even come close to trusting people again .

especially men  because if a man approached me to say hi

i'd make sure i was 5 feet away just to get a Good head start at a run .

Then you came along and sang this song that God know's all i could think was  Maybe someday out there i'll Find LOVE  again

and i'll mean to them what i'm trying to tell you , your song

Meant Something To Me , it made me wanna know if chivary

was Dead  or If miracles truly can happen when you least expect it

even when your as Big or Fat to some as I am .

i wanted to tell you as strange as it may sound now , i never meant to insult you asking you to play the song for a Tip .

I just wanted you to know that  it Meant something to me

hearing you sing your song of Cocoaine

Because when a person's NEVER had love and they

find it in something you wrote that made them wish for

Such a feeling of Love

shouldn't it be a Gift to know No matter where  you are in this world

someone is Greatful to you for putting back

the Smile on their Heart and the warmth in their Face

that shows you it meant something to me

and for that You'll Always be LOVED !

written by Celeda's Rein 3-16- 2011  for  singer  Jerrod Niemann