Talk to me please what Does it all Mean

you've been gone 6 years now and there have been days 

when i've missed Driving to your house just

to see you smile or laugh a while .

we've worked together longer then that , you taught me

so many things yet the greatest gift was your

love & encouragement for me to Dream

of being the "Writer  , I longed to be "

you were the one who loved reading all kinds of books

even some with languages of germany & Dutch

well ok the dutch book you got for me once .

I miss you sooo much that i've started reading books as a

tribute of my love for you , just to keep you close

now  i'm a little  worried & wondering what it all means

when the books i've read lately always present your

favorite baseball team the Red Soxs and have noticed

the last book & movie i saw had the your name in it anne

as well as the Team you loved most .

so as i sit here thinking  of you & a guy i met from Austria

i call Ghost Rider who as we speak is visiting Ireland today

it's got me wondering

Talk to me  please , what does it all mean ?

are they just signs  your thinking of me too or is it

something Bigger are you sending me a Gift

that i have to put the puzzle together

in order to see what lies ahead and it's not as scary as 

I always told you i thought it was .

please just 1 more visit so i know i'm on the right path

and know i'll always love you

even when i'm bad at going by the house we both loved !

written sept 24, 2011  trying to figure out if love signs from heaven help us when we think they've  forgot